Archive for March, 2012

So far so good

Posted in Uncategorized on 03/16/2012 by ganns

I’ve been a lot more conscious of what I’ve been eating, and here’s what I’ve managed in the past two days:

  • Haven’t had chips. This is a big victory. Normally, when I leave work to go fetch my wife, I buy a can of soda and a bag of chips to tide me over during the drive. I have to break this habit, and so far, it’s been good.
  • Haven’t had post-dinner desserts. Normally, after dinner, my family and I have ice cream. So far, I haven’t had any the past two days.
  • Haven’t been snacking mindlessly. So important! I even avoided eating anything during my Thursday classes, and this is big because I always snack during the class.
  • Eating healthier. I’m reducing the rice I’m taking in, and I’ve been mindful of what I’ve been eating. Less fried food and more vegetables. I even have fruits for breakfast instead.

Here’s hoping it continues well. 🙂

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Depressed

Posted in Uncategorized on 03/15/2012 by ganns

Hi friends, I realize it’s been almost eight months since my last post.

I feel bad, I really do. Yesterday, my wife and I went shopping for pants because I didn’t fit into any of my old pants. Not because they were too big. No. They were too small. We ended up buying a pair of gorgeous black slacks that felt and looked great. Did I feel great?

Heck, no. Because the pants I bought were size 44’s.

I don’t think I’ve ever been so demoralized. I’m really sad. But I’m also angry because I’ve let myself get to this place. And sad and angry are good places to be. As they say, the bottom of the barrel’s a good place to be, because there’s nowhere to go but up.

As it is, this barrel can still go lower; I can still get heavier. And barring people suddenly wanting to pay me insane money to satisfy their feederism fetish, I can work my way out of this hole.

I started today with chicken tinola, a healthy clear broth, and a cup of rice. That should get me through the morning. At lunchtime, I’ll head on over to Jamba Juice, get a nice 16.oz to get me through the afternoon, and in the evening, perhaps some fruit and steamed veggies. Tomorrow, I revamp my workout plan.

I really need a buddy to get me through this. I think I’d better start tapping into my network. Meanwhile, wish me luck, and do say a prayer for me, okay? The Future Thin Guy wants to be “The Thin Guy.” Period. God help me.